Posted onApril 30, 2014
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This morning I am up early. We bought new furniture for our family room last weekend and they are delivering it today. The delivery time starts at 8:30am and lasts for hours so this will be an all day deal. There are many funny things about this – mainly there is no place to sit in the family room! Right now I am sitting on the floor as I type this. My dogs are running about – perhaps they think this is how things are going to remain? Nope – they have a nasty surprise coming. There is a new couch, a new love seat and chair coming – plus an awesome table which has an expanding top – which I am most excited about.
This family project will probably take up most of the day but that’s o.k. – as long as I get some coffee or an energy drink (or two) I am good to go.
I have not been able to recover from the death of our sweet Gus. I feel very hollow – like something in me is just broken to bits. I don’t know what to do except feel this way and this is just a horrible way to feel. I miss him and there is just this hole. 11 years is a long time to have a dog. 11 years and 6 months. Something has been ripped away from me. I know putting him down was the right thing to do but I fear I will always be haunted by it. I keep thinking I am okay and I can get up and go on but I seem to be constantly looking for him. I call the other dogs by his name. Nothing feels right – it’s all different and I am so lonely for him…
I cannot imagine feeling any worse – unless I were to lose a beloved family member but that is just it, isn’t it? He WAS a beloved family member. We had him since he was 12 weeks old.
I am so far behind on things. I try to get up swinging and I end up sitting and looking out the window all day. I have made a few attempts to get back into my art – trying to get inspired but that lost feeling keeps catching up with me.
I just don’t know how to heal.
It hasn’t been this long between entries for me in a long long time and every time I sit down and actually DO THIS I kick myself because I miss it and I should be doing it.
2008 has gotten off to a rocky start. We had to put down one of our dogs, our Golden. He was very sick with multiple ailments but it doesn’t make it any easier. He was a great dog. He could give you a high five – which I taught him to do when he was a puppy. Sometimes you get a dog with a spark. With a real personality and Gus was one of those dogs. I miss his so much I still see him out of the corner of my eye…
In other news, I closed my cafe press store after having it at least 4 years. I wasn’t making enough of a profit off of it and paying too much for the store front, I felt. You can buy all of my stuff at Zazzle now RedSangre’s Gallery at Zazzle and if you are interested, you should really check it out. Lots of fun cool stuff in there.
Also for all of you tubers – you can buy my art here My PSP Tubes – you can make icons or myspace tags or whatever you want with them. It’s a really reasonable price, I think and a very reputable company. They represent a lot of famous and talented artists.
I hope 2008 has started off well for you all. I promise not to stay away so long anymore…