Can it be?

My house is quiet.

Yes. Quiet.

Winter break is officially over and Miles trooped out the door sadly but definitely on time. Back to school. My darling husband and my sister, too. Out of the house. It’s just me and the dogs. And really? I am not sure how to feel about it.

On one hand – HOORAY! I have the peace and quiet, the solace that I am used to and I NEED but on the other hand? I got used to having Miles around all day. It is the weird give and take that Moms have to deal with all the time. I usually feel the same way when summer comes to an end, too.

Ahh well. This was a good break. We spent a lot of time having fun. We played games and had a awesome snow storm. We went to see BOLT and – let us not forget – we had Christmas and New Years in there, too.

Miles back at school…

Well, it has begun. The 2007/2008 school year. Miles is officially a 2nd grader. Wow! Where is that little boy who used to sing Wiggles songs and pretend he was a puppy? I am in a strange place, really. Torn between being excited about his growing up and so saddened by it at the same time. I sigh with relief that he has made it through another year, I cheer his achievements and I long for the days of when things seemed more simple and less scary. The older he gets, the more the outside world has a say in who and what he becomes. The influences of his friends, his teachers and coaches. They will all effect him and help mold him…

I sit here in my quiet quiet house, listening to thunder in the distance, eating a donut and knowing only one thing for sure…

I love my son more than anything in this world.

Stressed and ready to go

Before I go out of town, I always stress. I am convinced I am going to forget something and end up having to pay some exorbitant price to buy it at the hotels gifts & sundries shop. And don’t get me wrong – I love the California Disney hotel where we are staying BUT I really don’t want to pay $2.95 for a 97¢ tube of travel toothpaste! So I make long lists with comical notes like *don’t forget the hair bands* & *do you really want to buy a camera???* It’s silly, I know it. I can’t help it. I over plan. I need to just sit back and enjoy the flow…

Miles is going to be missing almost ALL of school next week! Wow. I know that is exciting for him but I seriously hope it does not effect his grades much. He made a profoundly mature decision and wants to take next weeks homework packet with him on the trip! I was totally impressed with that. He told me he could work on it in the hotel room at night…What sort of 7 year old makes this kind of astoundingly mature decision? A SMART ONE! Wheee my kid is so smart. Yahoo!

Ahhh one more morning to go…

You can’t see me but I am smiling really BIG right now.

Just shake it off, kid…

I had a horrible dream this morning after my husbands alarm went off. I drempt that my son wasn’t my son, but instead the son of a friend of mine. I was like his baby sitter or something weird.

I woke up with the most awful feeling in my stomach and went in his room to watch him sleeping for a bit. He doesn’t have to get up for school for another 30 minutes or so – and since he is 7 he needs ALL THE SLEEP he can get – so I didn’t wake him. I just watched him. He is a treasure, you know, something when I was younger I couldn’t even imagine that I would find. Some girls grow up knowing they are going to have kids but I just sort of hoped.

I have so much to do today. I gotta clear the cobwebs and breathe a huge sigh. We are going out of town at the end of next week so there are clothes to clean and bags to pack and schools to notify.

and just like that…I am off and running…